tsukasa

I loved you so much. You might have been my little girl. You were my favorite "guinea pig" whenever I picked up a new lens for my camera. I had so much I still wanted to do with you, but your life was too short and far too difficult in the past few months.

I've never made this kind of decision, and I pray that I never will have to again. When I held you before signing off that paperwork, I realized how fragile your life was. You had that IV and you showed so much excitement at first, and that was what I wanted to see more than anything.

I saw your little stubwaggle when Julie came into the room and my heart sang! You were suddenly being the little girl I knew and loved. I had hope that you could beat this terrible illness and come back to us.

But while you were strong, I fear that it was stronger. And I'm sorry to have let you suffered under its grasp for so long.

But this way, you will be up in Heaven with Bitsy- your friend that you came to love and help us endure through her illness. You'll be able to run up and down the stairs and eat all the leftovers dropped from the stove to your heart's content. You will once again have that bell-in-a-tennis-ball that I was unable to replace. As Melissa said, you can keep God up with your snoring, but I'm sure He won't mind.

You will, again, be happy. And you will be without pain.

And for that, I am greatful.

I await the day when you can curl up next to me again.

Until then, find that FAVORITE couch of yours and squirm and squirm until you have claimed it. Just remember to save us a spot on it, please.

With all of my love,
Kirsy


(x-posted to my livejournal)

I've been quiet for quite a while. This is partially because stuff has kept me very very busy and now I'm finishing school on top of having a very busy life with work.

As such, I'm slowly getting back into my photography. But once school lets up, you better believe I'll be back into it full time.

I need to make my Christmas cards, afterall.

I almost always have a photograph straight to the altar in a church. Why is that? I try to photograph the very first thing I see when I step inside. More often than not, the churches are empty, and I can enter without anyone in my path.

However, recently, I visited the Cathedral Santuario de Guadelupe in downtown Dallas for the first time. I note 'the first time' because I will try again- I may try during the evening when the sun isn't so bright outside, so I can get better photos of the stained glass windows.

Nevertheless, I chose to go to it about 40 minutes before mass (and I stayed for mass as a gesture of kindness in return to theirs). It was /crowded/. And I never got a clear look at the altar upon entry. The first thing I noticed was the designwork of the ceiling and the windows themselves.

Strange, how in most churches, I always find myself looking ahead. However, in this one exception, I found that I was looking up.

Sorry to flood you all with a ton of photos. I had a bunch to catch up with.
Nevertheless, some are photos from AnimeFest last year.

But I also have photos from my recent trip to Austin. You can find more detail on the trip itself on my livejournal- kayceephoto.livejournal.com.

I chose to take all the backroads instead of the main interstate when going back home to Dallas.

I'm extremely glad I did.

Just so you can't say 'I see what you did there.'